And the date is set...

I have a date for my surgery finally, It will be July 1st. It seems so far away from now, but as I always say, God has a plan for everything. I came down with a horrible cold and if surgery was set for sooner, I would not be able to do it... I am still really nervous about having it, but am looking forward to no more pain. I will be in the hospital over night and hopefully be able to come home the next day. I always say that I need a vacation or a night away, just didn't think it would be this way, oh well I will just keep looking for the positive.

On a brighter note Emma has started eating alot better. We started giving her nutrition drinks with extra calories and it seems to be working really well for her, She will even sit down and eat most of her meals. Thank God, prayers just keep working for this little girl, I still believe that God has big plans for her... We go back to the Dr's June 25 for a check-up and stuff, so hopefully he will have good news and we can have even more to celebrate at her birthday on the 27th.

God bless and I will keep everyone posted on how we are doing, love to all of you...

Finally....

We have been working with Nickolas for awhile now to potty train and I think it has finally began to work. We have gone a day and a half now wearing "Big Boy" pants and have not had one accident. I am so excited for him and me. One down and one more to go... I guess it was kind of funny how it all come about, here is a little re-cap...

Nickolas: "Look Mommy, I changed my pants".

Mommy: "Nickolas, did you put on your own diaper?"

Nickolas: "Yep, I am a good job."

After that and seeing that my child was changing his own pants, the decision was made no more pull-ups or diapers, no matter what (other than at night). I just hope all keeps going well, we have an hour car ride tomorrow, lets pray he does OK. I am soooo proud of him, maybe if he is potty trained, Emma will want to do it to... I can only hold my breath and pray...

Another chapter closes...

When I was 21 I was told that I had poly cystic ovaries, at the time I did not understand what that meant, now I know only too well. In the past 8 years I have had 5 surgeries to "clean everything up" and multiple Dr visits. Recently I have had ALOT of pains and discomforts, so back to the Dr I went. I finally got in for my ultrasound yesterday and found out more than I had expected. I was told that my ovaries are shot and are full of cyst, so that could only mean one thing to me, surgery again... After telling me that my ovaries are bad he began to tell me that my uterus doesn't look so good either. I have uterine tissue growing out side of the uterine wall, to say the least it could be very dangerous. At the end off hearing all of this I was told that my ovaries and my uterus needs to come out and asap.

I know that I was not planning on having anymore babies, but just the thought that it is not even a possibility anymore really hurts. God has blessed me and my family with beautiful babies, two babies that I was not supposed to be able to have do to all my other problems. I am so thankful for that but, I guess I am just being a little selfish, I don't want someone to take what makes you so much different from men...

I am trying to look on the bright side and think that there will be no more pain no more pain meds, I can finally really enjoy my kids. I am also so thankful that God gave me my children when he did, he his the only one that knew my future and thankfully he gave me a chance to be a Mommy early.

Please pray for me and Josh as we journey down this road, I know I am still going to shed more tears and there will be a little more pain, but I know God will take care of me.

Princess Emma...

We are getting ready for two up-coming birthdays, Katelyn will be 7 and Emma will be 2. I asked Katie girl what kind of birthday she wanted and to my surprise she said a water luau party (that is what we had last year), so easy enough for me I still have some of the stuff. Emma on the other hand was very funny...

Mommy: "Emma what kind of birthday do you want".
Emma: : "hmmmm (tapping her finger to her chin) mommy I'm a Princess"
Mommy: You mean you want a princess party?
Emma: "No Mommy, I a princess"

So after a little back and forth she finally understood when I showed her a party book. She was soooo excited when she saw the princess stuff, she started kissing the book and saying it was her princess. So low and behold guess what kind of party we are having for Ms. Emma? "Princess Party". I will be sending out invitations to both soon, hope to see everyone. I just had to share our little conversation, almost two year olds can be so funny...

Grandpaw Womack...

Grandpaw has been fighting cancer for about a month now and went to be with the Lord today. He was a very strong and proud man and fought until the end. He will be greatly missed by all his children, grandchildren and great-grandchildren and the rest of the family and friends of this wonderful man. Please pray for the Womack famliy as they go through this great loss...

1 sick Mommy = 2 happy kids...

I hope everyone had a great weekend and Mothers Day, I know I did. We got to spend lots of time as a family which is very rare since Josh works nights. We had dinner over at Non and Grans, which was great being able to relax and see rest of the family, not to mention Gran is pretty good on the grill.
Yesterday I woke up and had the worst congestion in a long time, it was only in my head so I did not think much about it, take some benadryl and go about my day. I wish that was the case, when I got up this morning my throat hurt, my head hurt and my ears a are killing me. To say the least the kids had a good time running around and doing what ever they wanted today. I think they only settled down to eat and to actually take a nap (at the same time), thank God for that nap. I can only hope that tomarrow I feel better and the kids don't totally destroy the house...

Happy Mothers Day...

I had this Poem sent to me and just thought I would share...

Dear Lord, it's such a hectic day With little time to stop and pray For life's been anything but calm Since You called on me to be a mom Running errands, matching socks Building dreams with building blocks Cooking, cleaning, and finding shoes And other stuff that children lose Fitting lids on bottled bugs Wiping tears and giving hugs A stack of last weeks mail to read So where's the quiet time I need? Yet when I steal a minute, Lord Just at the sink or ironing board To ask the blessings of Your grace I see then, in my small one's face That you have blessed me All the while And I stop to kiss That precious smile.

So far I have had a wonderful Mothers Day weekend, I actually got to go out for a few hours with my Mom, we got are hands and feet done and even snuck in a little shopping. When I got home my wonderful husband had both of the little ones fed, bathed and ready for bed. That in its self is the best present I could ever ask for, "thank you honey, your the best".

I hope everyone has as great of a day that I have, HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!

Please Pray For Emma!!!

I just got off the phone with the cardiologist and he said that feeding issues are very common in heart kids. He also said that due to her lack of eating and weight lose that she might have to have a feeding tube put in. I told him that I did not want to do that and if we could exasperate all other options first. They are sending all her records over the the nutritionist and I should be hearing from them soon. He also said that her heart surgery was drawing closer, but that we will discuss that more in our next appt. in June. I am just praying for her to gain some weight so she will be healthy when they do her heart surgery. If you can please pray for peace for our family, I know that this journey is hard on everyone not just Josh and I. Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers, I will let you know more as I do.

Not sure what to do...

For the past few months Emma has not been wanting to eat. When she does, she eats half a chicken nugget and few Fry's or maybe a little fruit. I just don't know what else to do... When I took her to the cardiologist three months ago I brought the issue up, but he said that everything looked fine. I just don't know if everything is really OK... I mean how healthy can it be to not eat... I know everyone says that heart kids have alot more difficulty eating, but this is more than difficult, this is a lack of... This is really stressing me out, I mean I just don't know what else to do to help her, I feel so helpless. I know that if she does not start eating that could mean a whole new round of test or maybe surgery sooner than later. I can only pray to God that he gives me and my family the strength to journey down this path and to give Emma comfort and his hand to hold, whatever path she will be taking.

Please pray for Emma, please pray for her to stay healthy and to stay strong during this long road I know she will have one day.

I will update soon, I am going to call the cardiologist tomorrow...

Samantha

Just thought I would share a few pictures of the kids, there will be more to come, These are just the newest ones on my computer. I am the worst at putting our pictures on the computer...

It's been soooo long....

Sorry it has been so long, honestly I totally forgot about mt blog... I know I am not a good blogger, I promise it do better...

Let me start off by updating everyone about Emma...
Emma has been doing really well, she has had no hospital visits in over a year. It is so amazing to me that this little girl with so many heart issues has had no major problems lately, God is truly a great God and has kept this little girl under his wing. I know that she is going to have to have surgery soon, probably in the next year or so. I can only pray that when it is time he prepairs our family and doctors for that day. The only thing that we are having to watch is her weight. She has not been gaining and actually lost some weight. From what I know, this might be the first sign that surgery is nearing. Other than that she is amazing. God has big plans for her. I honestly believe he is using this little girl to show people that he still works miracles. Everyone that meets this amazing little girl is amazed by her, not only that she is still here with us but that she is doing as well as she is. She teaches people to be so thankful for what they have and not worry with the little stuff. He is in control, if you give your problems to him he will do the worrying for you. I know I have learned to live life for every moment and if God decides to give you more moments, give thanks, life is such a precious gift and we should be truly thankful for what we have and not dwell on what we want or think we have to have. God never gives us more than we can handle, although I feel he pushes us a little further than we thought we could go. Please keep praying for Ms. Emma, every day can produce more challenges, I only pray that we are strong enough to work through them.

As for the rest of us it is just the same ol' same ol'. Nickolas is still going to school two days a week and loves every minute of it. He had tubes in his ears and can hear and speak sooo much better. His favorite phrase now is "Mommy, you make me mad". he usually uses this one when he doesn't get what he wants. I then have to explain to him why he can not have it and let him tell me why he is mad. You have to love three year olds, they come up with the cutest things.
Katelyn is wrapping up her first grade year and is looking forward to her summer vacation. She is such a good reader that her teacher says she is reading on a fourth/fifth grade level. She thinks she is just hot stuff because she can read chapter books, I have to say it is quite amazing.
Josh is still working nights, but he received a promotion and is now the night supervisor. I am just so thankful and blessed that I am able to stay at home and be with my kids. Trust me, at times I wish I could go back to work, but I think all Mommies have though's days.

We have just been truly blessed with everything we have been given, God is good we just have to stop an look...