Well today is the day, I have been waiting for it for a long time and now that it is here, I am not sure I am as excited as I once was. I just realized yesterday that this will be the first time I will have surgery done and have my kids. It kind of changes everything, I am worried more about what could happen to me. I mean, I am the one that takes care of everything around the house and the kids, they are my heart and the thought of something happening to me and not being there for them is to heard to think about. Let me also say that Josh also does his things around here that keep us going and is sooooo important in the completion of our family, but I am the Mommy. I am the one that tries and hold everything together and today everything is out of my control and I hate that.
I know I am over reacting and women have this done every day, but I guess once you have a family, you are in charge of someone other than yourself and you have to put everyone else first.
I know everything will be ok, I have prayed and prayed that God gives me the strength to leave my family for a few days and brings me through this with flying colors. He has blessed me thus for in my life, marriage and family, that I know that he will get me past this.
Now I will be positive again... I thank God that I live in a country that I can get medical care when needed, which means no more pain, other than the recovery and I am sooooo grateful for that. It has been a much needed and wanted operation.
I will post in a few days when I get home, I am suppose to have surgery at noon, but that could mean 11 or 2 in the afternoon.
Please pray for me to keep the strength and courage to keep going through with this, I would be lying if I said I was not just a little scared, but I have the faith that everything is going to be great...
Talk to everyone in a few days....
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